To my Zayne,
As our time to meet grows near, I'm finding it harder and harder to sleep. My mind is filled with excitement, as I have waited so long for your arrival, and I cannot wait to see your precious face. I wonder who you'll look like, if you'll have your dad's eyes and my nose. I wonder what your first thoughts will be, if it will be "Hey mom and dad!" or "Who are these crazy people?" I'm also a little nervous. I've never been a mom before. I'm sure there will be some bumps in the road, and I pray that you have patience with me as I learn. We will both make our share of mistakes, but I know that we will be just fine.
I'm sure that by now you have noticed all the keepsakes I've collected for you, and I hope you don't think I'm a hoarder. Your dad and I prayed for you for so long, so when we found out that I was pregnant with you, I decided to start writing down our experiences. You have been our miracle since before you were conceived. I made a scrapbook filled with memories from before you even existed. Your creation was such a big event, and you had many followers long before your birth. I am thankful to have such a large support system to guide me thru this! I started journaling my pregnancy early on, the ups and downs, my feelings as you were growing inside me. I kept all the cards received so you will see just how many people love you. I kept all the notes from the birthing classes. Some (or all) of this may seem silly, but I want you to know that prayers do come true, and you are proof of that, and I want to remember each step of this journey and share it with you.
My hope is that you will know just how much you were loved, before you even set foot on this earth. There aren't enough words in the dictionary to describe my feelings for you. Each night as I watch you squirm inside my tummy, I am fascinated my your activity level. You are always on the move, which makes me wonder if you're going to be an all-star athlete when you grow up, or if you're just cramped in your current living quarters. I could sit back and watch you move all day long. I'm sure you will have an amazing personality, always busy, just like your father. And I'm sure that I'm gonna be one tired momma when you start crawling and walking!
So I guess to sum it all up, I just cannot wait for you to get here. I'm not worried about labor or pain, or anything in between, because it's all so worth it to have you in our lives. I am already so proud of you, for being a fighter and making it through the science experiment that was your conception. I can't wait to see what the future holds for you! I never dreamt that this time would come, and I'm thrilled to call you my son. I love you more than you will ever know!
Love always,
Mom
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